Predictable

I called her today to tell her to take her box from me. She hanged up on me when she knew who I was. Yes she did delete my number because she asked me who I am and when I told her she simply hanged up on me. I sent her a message telling her to take her box. I hesitated with sending her a message because what she did is a huge slap on the face but because she hanged up on me before saying anything about the box so I had to. I felt like sending her a second message telling her what an awful person she really is and I felt like going to her house and beating the living hell out of her and I felt like.. I FELT LIKE A FIRE IS BURNING MY SOUL.

But no I'm not gonna do this.. no I'm not gonna call her. No, I'm not gonna have a fight. I will be better than her and take the high road instead. I find it both funny and ironic how her response came too naturally to show me how much she doesn't want anything to do with me anymore. To be quite honest, I wasn't shocked by her behavior because this isn't the first time she shuts me up when I bring her the subject of this damn box.

Conclusion: I will burn this box to ashes as soon as I finish typing this post. Looking back at this I say she trusted me and I appreciate it but you know what I appreciate more? That no matter how much she trusted me I never trusted her back by telling her or giving her such important and intimate information about me. In my life I trusted a lot of wrong people but something about her really.. I don't know how to explain I just never felt the courage to tell her something private about me. I always thought that I had no reason to.

I think that sometimes it takes you years to realize who is truly your friend. I think the biggest mistake that we do is giving our hearts and souls without thinking, I know me and her have been friends for so many years but the fact is, I may have had the ultimate excuse to trust her with my life because all of these years of our friendship and the way this scenario goes, "She didn't backstab me in all those years so why would she backstab me now? If she was about to backstab she would have done it a long time ago. There's no reason to do it now. She's a true friend" she never showed me this nasty pattern of hers until she disappeared without notice. She is supposed to take this box away because it has private information but from the way she hanged up on me I can pretty much tell the girl has no shame and why would she be ashamed of what's in this box?!

I will look back at this day as a brand new day and a whole brand new lesson learned.

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On a brighter note: R! 7beebti! I got worried about you girl:( I didn't find your blog bas when I clicked on your profile I found the new one ;*

This is her NEW blog: http://r-double-s.blogspot.com/
The deleted one is: http://r-dobble-s.blogspot.com